Friday, December 15, 2006

Influence (Last Post Of The Semester)

Christmas is only ten days away! You know it! I'm packing up and heading out tomorrow morning. Pretty much everyone else in the dorm has already gone home, but of course somebody had to work the late shift at the front desk tonight. :) It's pretty dull here...far too quiet. I honestly don't know how I'm going to sleep tonight without the guy from New Jersey practicing his guitar chords right in front of my room.

But other than the lack of activity around here, it's been a pretty famous day (that's my new favorite word for expressing something positive--famous). I finished my last two exams and I think I did quite well on them (we'll see if I'm right or not in a few days). And I got to say goodbye to everybody at the dorm. Really, three weeks apart is quite a long time. And some of the people (like a few of the International students) are going back to their home countries. Chances are I'll never see them again.

That's not as painful to think about as you'd think, though. I believe I've just come to accept that there are certain people who just waltz into your life unexpectedly, shake things up a little bit, and then are gone just as quickly. Sure, it's a little sad, but you never know where that little bit of influence will come in further down the road. When you say goodbye to someone, and it hurts, it makes you realize that they've left a piece of themselves inside of you--even if your relationship wasn't anything more than sitting next to each other in US History. And it also means that you might have influenced others--in ways both small and big. The whole concept makes me a little self-conscious about my actions, and it also makes me grateful for the people in my life, both past and present, big and small.

Whoa. Sorry for the philosophical ramble. It's late. :) I guess it's just hitting me that my words have consequence. I mean, according to my StatCounter, I have people from Oregon to Taiwan checking out this blog. I know good and well it only takes a few heartfelt blog posts (I'm looking at you DM and Grace) to change a person's ideas and perspectives. I wonder who I'm changing. That sounds arrogant, but I don't mean it to be at all. Heck, I want to be a writer. My whole business is influence, is it not? But the scary thing--or perhaps the most beautiful--is that I have little if any control over what my influence might be. None of us do.

So, I've just decided to say what I think and write what I feel (and vice-versa). My first semester of college is over. I've met a lot of people, done some crazy things, written a lot of words (that were read by a lot of folks), and I've prayed a lot of prayers. There might be silence on this thing over Christmas break (after all, it's called Adventures of a Christian Collegian), but if anything important happens I'll let you know. If not, Merry Christmas everybody, and God bless. I'll hear from you on the flip-side. It's been a ride. :)

8 comments:

Amanda said...

Congratulations on surviving your first semester!

Have a fantabulous Christmas break. Enjoy yourself, relax, eat lots of good food.

And most importantly, have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

casey said...

Congrats on doing well on your exams and for making it through your first semester! Merry Christmas.

Joe said...

Have a famously cool* Christmas Jay.

Joe

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Did you know the earliest use of the word cool was in Wilkie Collins' "The Moonstone" 1868?

Cool!" said Mr. Bruff. With that one word of comment on the reply that I had made to him, he took another turn up and down the room.

It's difficult to imagine people in the 19th Century saying "Kewl!" to each other.

grace said...

"You can't stay in your corner of the forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes."
-Winnie the Pooh

Thanks for coming into my forest...and I'm blessed as well to get to wander around in yours.

love you!
pam

Jay said...

Thanks everyone! Holiday's going pretty good so far (I'm coming down with something--I'd better not be sick on Christmas!) Remember, I'm not dead, I'm just on dial-up. I'll try to post something if anything hits me.

God Bless,
Jay

Anonymous said...

God bless you, man, seriously.

Pomoprophet said...

Enjoy your Christmas break. Those are always unique times during college. You feel like you have two lives. And in a sense you do. For me when I was at school I missed home a bit and when I was at home I missed school a bit. It was always fun when I could combine those two worlds. Enjoy your much earned time off!

Rodrigo said...

Yeah, I know I´m 4 years late (wow), but just for you to know, you´ve change my life in a way that you can´t imagine. Your life and your XP has been a bless to me, just knowing that I´m NOT alone, it's quite famous :D and now that I break the silence treatment (lol) I´ll probably comment more.
Now, looks who is rambling?! :P I just wish I could have know you 4 years ago too =/.. but aaaanyways.. I´m just glad that you are part of my life now!! (lol, yeah it may sound strange, but thats true lol)